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Where are your roots? And your heart?

“It is best to love first what you are fitted to love, I suppose: you must start somewhere and have some roots, and the soil of the Shire is deep. Still there are things deeper and higher; and not a gaffer could tend his garden in what he calls peace but for them, whether he knows about them or not. I am glad that I know about them, a little”.

Merry · The Return Of The King

Our roots. We grow to love them, to be familiar with them, to accept them. That is where our journey begins. But, these roots are quite different from the ones of a tree. Unlike this one, we can move. We are free to decide what will be the next step in our journey. But we don’t forget those roots, because they are part of who we are. That’s why, being away from them, we might find ourselves uncomfortable, out of place, exhausted, nervous, anxious; because everything is unfamiliar, different and hard. But it is so important to understand that we are who we are anywhere we go. After all, home is where the heart is. Besides, there is so much out there to see and to learn from, that it will be a pity to suffer from lack of adventure, just because we are scared or tired.

It is no easy to walk away from your roots and going on an adventure. Actually, it is so far from easy, that we could even think that’s impossible. But courage and patience are not build in one day. Our story takes time and effort to write. Otherwise, it will be kind of boring. But there are great news at the end of most chapters. With time, we realise that the unfamiliar can become familiar, and the unusual, usual. We are the ones who get to decide where our heart is and where it belongs. We can step aside, away from our roots, and learn who we are. The place we come from doesn’t necessarily define us. Everything is so intricate, and mixed up nowadays, that we get confused when we try to answer such a simple question like Who am I?

My roots are somewhere else, far away from where I remain. I have grown to love them, to be proud of who I am and from where I come. But I couldn’t ignore the countless questions popping into my head, without rest. Deep in my heart, I knew that “there are things deeper and higher“. So I had to come up with a solution, and I realised that no matter what happened, if my decision will lead to my happiness and mental health, it would be the right one.

When you make the decision, and you step outside your comfort zone, eventually, you will find yourself in front of a large mountain, unable to see what lies beyond. However, sooner or later, you get to the other side and realise that it was all worth it. Because life is not about being still, complaining about what you could have had if_____(fill in the blanks), but to stand up and keep walking till you reach whatever you are after. Then, you won’t say “I should have stayed home”. A life of sorrow is not the answer. Instead, you’ll say “I am glad to know what is beyond the mountains”.

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